just wanna you to know

assalammualaikum..

kepada : jejai

' apa khabar? semoga sihatlah hendaknya.. kali ini, fatimahdin ingin meluahkan sesuatu agar jejai mengetahui apa yang ada dalam hati ini.. (ayat macam jiwang, tak boleh blah la )..
fatimahdin bukanlah seorang budak yang romantik kerana sifat fatimahdin adalah agak brutal.. suka buat lawak tak pasal2.. suka angkat2 kening2 macam zianazain.. hey, bukan itu yang ingin fatimahdin perkatakan tapi fatimahdin hanya ingin jejai tahu bahawa...
fatimahdin menerima dirimu seadanya.. sudah lama ingin fatimahdin luahkan tapi fatimahdin pendamkan sahaja.. fatimahdin tidak tahu mengapa dipendam..
jejai, jikalau dahulu ketika anda bersama fashasandha, anda menjemput dia menaiki helikopter tapi jikalau dengan fatimahdin awak tak jemput menggunakan helikopter pun fatimahdin tak kisah.. nak tahu kenapa? pasal fatimahdin menerima diri anda seadanya..

 ingat tak fatimahdin pernah menyatakan :

          ' kalau awak susah, saya pun susah,

            bila awak senang, fatimahdin hanya mampu tersenyum,

            dan kalau awak sakit, saya sanggup kesakitan itu datang pada saya..'

bahkan, kalau awak ajak meredah lebuhraya utara selatan dengan berjalan kaki pun tak apa..bukan harta yang fatimahdin pandang pada diri awak.. bukan juga paras rupa.. even, awak pernah list-kan kekurangan awak bahawa rambut awak beruban, gigi kuning, gigi bersepah, kurus, badan tak tegap dan lain2.. bukan tu semua yang fatimahdin pandangkan.. hey, itu anugerah tuhan tau.. bersyukurlah!

as what fatimahdin says :

          ' keep it originally! '

 bila di-fikir2-kan balik, sebenarnya tak adalah banyak mana yang fatimahdin minta dekat awak even fatimahdin banyak request something yang banyak men-DERA sanubari awak..hik2.. fatimahdin rindu nak DERA awak.. cuma sejak kebelakangan ini, aktiviti penDERAan fatimahdin agak tidak menyengat..
jejai, fatimahdin cuma nak kasih sayang, kepercayaan dan kesetiaan awak.. tak banyak pun yang fatimahdin minta.. nanti, fatimahdin topup-kan lagi permintaan fatimahdin ye.. ^_^
fatimahdin cuma ada awak sorang je.. tak ada yang lain..trust me!!!'

to be continue...

chop! : fashasandha pasti tersandar membaca entry ini...

salam sayang,
fatimahdin5734

( i think? )

assalammualaikum..

if Love was a person, how do you think he or she would be like? maybe, he or she (whatever tickles your fancy) likes to eat Thai food.. or watch the E! news.. maybe he likes talking on the phone, or not, maybe he's  a texting kinda guy, maybe he likes taking a walk at night.. he could be good looking, this, really hot guy who looks like Ashton Kutcher, breaking hearts and faces, a total douche, really mean.. shows no mercy and only cares about himself, maybe he's a rock star with drug problems.. or maybe, he's a total opposite.. he could be as cute and dorky as Micheal Cera.. maybe Love is a dork! and nothing more! sweet..!! always nice to you.. who tells you that everything gonna be okey..! shows up randomly at your place with pepperoni pizza and a really good DVD.. who holds your face and look into your eyes like he will never leave you..

so, how do you think Love would be like if he was just a guy? maybe he enjoys smoking after meals.. or smokes weed occasionally.. maybe, he shoplifts for fun.. maybe, he is a father of 3 kids.. maybe, he has 3 wives.. maybe he is a Muslim who is in love with a Jewish girl.. maybe he is looking for a roommate to share his apartment with.. maybe he collects Star Wars toys.. maybe, he is a straight fashion designer.. maybe he rides a fixed gear.. maybe he's dating a celebrity.. maybe he is a guy who digs older women.. maybe he is just young and confused and doesn't know what he wants.. maybe he doesn't want to get hurt being in Love with someone.. maybe, he is just like you,he wonders what would Love be if she was just a  girl?

the truth is, I am in Love with a guy named, mohammad akmal bin adnan..

chop! : i miss you and i really3 Love you!!! i won't hurt you..

with Love,
fatimahdin5734

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assalammualaikum..

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salam sayang,
fatimahdin5734